After taking time away from the blog to buy a house, remodel it, move, get settled, and start a new part-time job, I am back. We are very excited about our new home which will allow us to continue to grow our family. With some of the chaos of the "house stuff" behind us, I find my mind once again back on adoption. In my heart I desperately want to adopt as soon as possible; however in my head I know that since we want to have another biological child it makes logical sense to do so while I am younger. Maybe God will have other plans for us. We'll just have to wait and see...
Sometimes I question whether I should have started this blog, knowing that we likely won't be adopting for quite some time, but then I think about how many doors have been opened due to the fact that more people know about our desire to adopt at some point. I have been introduced to a number of families who are in the process of adoption right now. One is doing an international adoption of two boys with varying levels of disabilities, one is trying to adopt through the foster care system, and one recently completed the private adoption of a newborn.
Also, I think it will be interesting one day to look back and read how time and experiences may change my views on certain aspects of adoption (it has already happened once). I'm an avid watcher of I'm Having Their Baby, a reality TV show I blogged about in the past. This show in and of itself has helped change me from being afraid of any kind of open adoption to not wanting to do anything other than at least a semi-open adoption (if we do an international adoption or adopt from foster care this is not always an option). Adoption is not a selfish decision, it's a selfless one, and this show has shown this to be the case. Having carried my own biological children for 39-40+ weeks, I know the bond that inevitably forms. The courage it takes to place that child with another (generally much more stable) family is the ultimate of sacrifices. I now understand that some level of openness, hands down, is best for the birth mom and the adopted child, and I don't want my fears or insecurities to prevent communication should that be what the birth mom wants or needs.
